People tell me that I shouldn't need you to be happy.
Well, of course other things will make me happy, but I'm just not completely happy.
I don't think there's anything wrong with that.
It just means that you mean a lot to me, and I want my life to be with you.
I hope you're happy, but I also hope you're not.
I don't want you to be sad, but I don't want you to be okay with not being with me.
It'll mean that I've always loved you more, and that's the one thing I never want to win.
I know we have to wait, in fact a part of me wants to.
I just think a part of me wants you now more than wanting to wait.

Clair de Lune, I think of you.

I'm listening to a beautiful performance of Clair de Lune, and it makes me think of you.
I know I've told you many times, but I love when you play piano for me.
It's beautiful.
You put so much love and care into every piece you play, even if you say you don't care for the piece.

This piece is so beautiful.
Tears stream down my face as I think about when I would sit next to you while you played. I would hug you from behind and kiss you as you continued to play.

I ache and wait for when I can do that again.

I miss you. I love you.